Hanging in at 59 for now

Boy, it's not long until I reach the threshold of old. Again. Thirty didn't bother me, nor forty, nor fifty. Sixty is not so bad, it's the idea I have that I have twenty good years left, outside. And I know how fast 20 years go by.

I let my sometimes red, sometimes blondish hair grow in grey. Tough question for MVD, hair color, don't know what to say. It sure doesn't look blond which is what I though my regular color is. I think you would call it twilight.

Figure has got to pot, literally, skin is like a lizards, when she's done with it. Eyes are going to hell. But lordy, I think I am so full of wisdom. So if you need some words of wisdom, let me know.

Tess and Chloe are going camping with Kelly until next week. I really miss them when they are not here, even though today we had a heated discussion about if Tess should wear a band aid to swimming lessons. Swimming teacher resolved the discussion, it doesn't matter it will probably fall off.

It is going to be so hard to leave this summer behind. I'm sure life in Napa is not over for me. I am awaiting further enlightenment to see what it will be.

I have been sitting outside in a glider looking at the tree and clouds and blue sky. It seems like looking down from a plane, through clouds to the ocean. Very blue underneath. So I got the camera and took a cloud picture, then I took pics of all the neat places in the courtyard. I know the girls really like it. They sit in a planted area with some long grassy tufts and look at fairies. Tess makes little houses out of flat stones. My granddog, Cid, just wanders around. She sometimes spends a few hours but she is always waiting for her mom to come.

It is a cool evening, God I love this time of day; twilight. It seems to suit my life stage. I't light, but not sunny. Getting cool. Pretty soon I will need to slide the door shut and close the windows. I am crocheting some trim for dish towels, but I don't like the looks of it. Well, not just now, but that is the active project, right now I am typing.

Since I don't have girls tomorrow, I don't have to worry too much about what time I get up as I can work until I am finished. I do have some projects that need attention, and of course, there is income tax filing, which hasn't been done yet. I had Bill bring me the software when he was here last month. I'll get it done. Soon.

I don't rally like eating alone. Well, I like to eat ice cream, but having supper alone is a bit of a drag. I eat with Annie a lot. I think we will miss each other's company. She has a lot of friends, but you know, you don't have to pick up the living room for family.

A few years ago I was in South Wilmington, Illinois, where my grandmother lived and I visited so many times as a kid and after. I was visiting an old friend, Rosemary. Her grandson who was about 9 I guess was hanging around. She kept telling him to go home, probably his mother would like to see him. I guess he had been there for five days. But grandma's is an extension of home as he lives just down the block. People who have this kind of extended family so close don't know what it's like to have them so far that you only see them a few times a year. I am experiencing a little closeness, although it will never be like hers. I missed so much. I must say, this summer has been a gift to treasure for a long time.

I will be returning to Phoenix at month end and back to full time work. Here we go with another break in period. They have hired people I haven't met yet. Usually, I am one of the first people to get acquainted because of the support I supply, system access, supplies, your computer, bathroom passes, etc.

Bill is flying over and will help me pack up my computer and drive back together. We try to talk on the web cam phone, but we get an unclear video which makes it hard for him to hear me. He already told me he put all my clutter and stuff into a box. so lord knows how long it will take to find everything. I have only had mail twice. He boxed it up once, and delivered it in person once. Hopefully he will bring it when he comes in a few weeks and I will shuffle through it shred most everything.